Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Pity Party for One

Fat.
Bored.
Incapable of getting off the couch.
Daydreams about things that should be done, and then does not do them.
Wakes up ridiculously late, then naps off and on throughout the day.

They say confession is good for the soul....

I am not good (REALLY no good) without the routine of the school year. As a teacher, I need the meetings, the bells, the paper work, and the lesson plans...Summer causes me to wallow in a pit of quicksand, slowly drowning...to the point of heartburn...oh, maybe that was what I ate for dinner. Glutton.

My mother used to say, when I complained of boredom, "Oh, you are bored? Well, I have something you can do..." It was never something wonderfully exciting like shrinky dinks or a game of Parcheesi. No, it was scrubbing the bathrooms, or folding laundry. I need a summer job, I think. Perhaps I will look in to that for next summer. This one is almost over. *sigh*

Do not get me wrong...I enjoy the beach...the sand ,the surf, the sounds. I need that as well- for my sanity. And summer is just about the only time I get that...It's just that in between the beach trips and a few other things that I do over the summer, I get lost. Lost aimlessly wandering through my days wondering what to do...I have no plan for the days. No little ones to chase after. No schedules to keep. The days are endless open plains...I know what you are thinking...you would love to have just ONE day like this, and what the hell am I belly aching about anyway?! Well, excuse me. This is a pity party for one, and I get to cry if I want to.

Perhaps my hormones are out of whack, and I would feel better after a good night's sleep. Yes.

*yawn*

Tomorrow is another day, and I will find something constructive to do with my time. I will surely let you know what that is...but in the meantime, thank you for having such a great life and for blogging about it, so I can at least fill up a few hours each day. Loser.




5 comments:

Killlashandra said...

I wouldn't be too hard on yourself, it is summer after all. And there is something to be said for the routine that school does bring people and believe me my kids all feel the loss of routine too.

Although they fear saying those words, Mom I'm bored because what they may end up doing won't be nearly as much fun as the laying around on the couch was. LOL

Stacy said...

I remember doing that quite a bit as a kid during the summer (in between the chores). Hopefully you can find something fun to do. Scrapbooking? Photography? Gardening??

salleebythesea said...

My most effective friend...what a disturbing photo. I worry that you seem so unhappy during the vacation (short as it is). Church is a good routine, maybe that would help?

natalie said...

Yes, CHURCH, might help. Salleebythesea, I agree!

Perhaps lunch with me next week would help?

Arizaphale said...

You need a project!!! It is too easy to fall victim to SLOTH!!! (see Se7en and you will never be slothful again!!!!!!:-D)
Make a list of wonderful things to do and find girlfriends to do them with you then tick them off one at a time.
Decorate a room. Come and do my gardening!!!!!!!
Haha...the verification letters for this post spell 'gobpup' hahahahaha
(gob being northern english for mouth)